So finally I gather all of my courage and messaged him, I got response positively.
It's been shit feeling till now and from now as well. Its gonna be more shittier or I'll became emotionally numb.
It's hard to cheat on your boy friend. Nomatter your boyfriend is alive or not alive.
I have my final exam in an hour but all mind is occupied with cheating and sex and if I can pull this of and what if I can be total different than I am now?
There is so many what if's going on in mind.
My life is as fucked up as my exam will be.
I am worried that why I am not worrying about my exam.
Every time I feel pressure about exam but I'm not feeling any pressure like it doesn't matter, and I am feeling so much pressure for sex. Sex is feeling like exam now
My head is spinning
I am not sure weather it's because of exam or I'm not we or my sex life is gonna be active and it's not gonna be like before.
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