Some times I think, People are nice. Not some times but all the times. I think this and then People do something that made me question myself?
I feel like I forget how to be single, without Him I am not able to move forward. I feel like I am right here, where he left me. I know that he will never come back but my heart and my mind looking for a miracle to happen. He is my home, he is my happy place. when he is around, everything feels more beautiful, he is the most beautiful of all.
After he left I was vulnerable, I think I still am but a little less. I made peace with myself. I am not entirely at peace, but I hope he found peace.
Fuck, I start crying, I am not sure when will it end.
I am losing words, there are so many thoughts which is running in my mind, but whenever I try to write to him or write something, words have not come along with me.
I am losing it again.
The main thing I wanna say is, People are being a jerk. don't know why now, but they are.
You know, after you left, some boys try to hit on me. I am okay with flirting you know that but there is a different kind of flirting. I feel like all they just want is to sleep with me. I mean what the fuck is they thinking while saying that? & I try to explain the whole "you are not here" situation and all they just said to me is you gotta try. They think I don't know that. of course, I know that I have to start all over again, but I don't want to start. I am liking it here, to be with you. I don't wanna go somewhere else, where I can't be me. with you, I feel whole. I am getting to know the concept of 'you make me whole'. In our world, You make me whole. I know that before, I am just missing you so much. As much as that I feel like I am no longer myself. I have to explore her.
I lost 'US' and I am no longer normal without 'US'.
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